Confusion

So.. last night when me and kevin talked, he had a confession. He told me the reason why he didn't want me to see his phone and everything that he hid from me that involved him and Kathlyn.. I cried for a while, then went numb and couldn't sleep the whole night.

When i woke up, Kevin came to get me so we could go to temple. I was extremely tired and unhappy. But he surprised me. He got out a bag of beef jerky (yumm) haha, and i was shocked and happy. Then he further surprised me and said i could choose from two options:

1. Go to my house and rent a bunch of movies and relax.
2. Go out to a mystery place and trust him.

Of course i chose the mystery place. He said he knew i liked surprises. I didn't really have very high expectations for this in the beginning, but he told me that we would get changed after temple really quick and then head to the SF ZOO!!! After the zoo closed, we'd have dinner and go home.

He knows i love animals and going to the zoo. I didn't say anything and immediately started tearing up. It was the greatest surprise ever. It made me forget the conversation from last night for a while. Then after the temple session was over, i was really really tired. During the chanting and praying, i'd remembered all the things he said about him and Kathlyn, and i felt bad again. I didn't wanna go to the zoo anymore. I wanted to stay home and cuddle and have him make me feel like he really does love me.

So after temple, we went to the bank and Blockbuster. We rented a horror flick and a UCF or UCS (something along the lines of that) fighting movie. At my house, there were extreme mixed emotions. I was happy, sad, angry, all in one day.

Kevin and i argued, but we resolved the problem. He told Kathlyn that he had a girlfriend and that the girlfriend was the girl that worked at the cash register at fanime. Kathlyn took it extremely well.

I actually feel quite bad for her because she was innocent. She didn't know that he had a girlfriend, but kevin lead her on. I'm still glad he did what he did though. But there was a point where he really did like her. So much that i feel like maybe we should break up and the two of them should get together. I'm so hurt. It's not that he's not treating me well, but it's the fact that he did, in fact, like another girl. I wish i wasn't so confused as for what to do...